Learning to feel transverse processes is very difficult. During our first weeks an occasional student would claim to be able to feel them. But the majority of the freshman class could feel nothing. It didn’t matter if we lightly touched the back or pushed with a great deal of force, we could not feel the transverse processes. We closed our eyes and scrunched our foreheads as we concentrated on the sensation beneath our fingers and still could not feel them.
Our difficulties were compounded by what we were learning in our Anatomy courses. In our books and in our studies with cadavers we learned about the spine and about the thick and powerful muscles that line it. These run over the transverse processes. We began to wonder if it was even possible to feel through these muscles to the bone beneath. Perhaps we would have to be extraordinarily gifted to ever feel through the muscles. Perhaps spinal manipulation and osteopathy was a fraud, pushed on us by teachers who were either delusional or deliberately deceiving us.
About the time some of the more outspoken students began making hotheaded statements, it happened. I felt the transverse processes. They were there, below the surface of the skin and muscle. With delicate pressure and movement I could feel them there. At first I thought I might be imagining it or faking it to myself. But by repeating my examinations and confirming my findings with my instructors I proved it to myself. Up and down the spine I could feel them and could tell which were rotated.
And I wasn’t the only one to feel them. The majority of my classmates were feeling them too. And suddenly the building doubt and resentment was passed. We knew that transverse processes were real, were palpable, and we could tell which were not aligned.
As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, I excitedly tell my friends about the Book of Mormon, about modern-day prophets, and about the restoration of the church that Jesus Christ established. I tell them that they can know if the things I tell them are true by the power of the Holy Ghost. It will whisper to them and confirm to them that these things are true.
Some people can immediately feel the promptings of the Holy Ghost and know that the message is true. Others struggle to receive an answer. They pray to our Heavenly Father for guidance and feel that their prayers are unanswered. Despite sincere effort they are still left wondering and begin to think that perhaps the message is not true. Perhaps their Mormon friends are either delusional or deceitful. Perhaps the Book of Mormon was cooked up by Joseph Smith. Perhaps God no longer calls prophets. Perhaps God does not even hear His children’s prayers.
To my friends searching for truth, let me say that the answers do not always come right away and the quiet whisper of the spirit is often difficult to perceive.
When I was younger I wanted to know for myself whether this church was the restored
But as the years have passed, my doubts have faded. So many times the Spirit has guided me and I have come to rely on it. I now regularly feel and recognize the delicate promptings of the Spirit. They have become a regular part of my existence.
When I read the scriptures and feel my mind opened and filled with light, I recognize the influence of the Spirit. When I kneel in prayer with problems and difficult decisions and am guided and comforted, I recognize the influence of the Spirit. When I am enjoying my family and feel peace and joy, I recognize the influence of the spirit. When I read the Book of Mormon, listen to the prophet speak, and pray for a divine confirmation that these things are true, I feel the spirit. The warmth and enlightenment fills me I know that they are true and of God.
The influence and answers that come from the Holy Ghost can be hard to perceive. But they are there, real and constant just like my transverse processes from medical school. If you are having trouble feeling the Spirit and receiving your answers, keep on trying. Do not give up faith or hope. I promise that you will feel those promptings. I know that God answers our prayers and guides us in our quest for truth. With patience and faith, you will perceive the whisperings of the Spirit and they will guide you to truth and great happiness.
Your Mormon Friend